right now i feel like i'm living in that episode of "the o.c." when it was like the one rainy day in california and everything else was falling apart too. the weather this week has been less that great. i like rain, though. it cools things off. we need the rain. but right now i feel like it is an outward expression of the state of life we are in.
as of last monday, my husband moved to atlanta to start his new job at matchstic. he loves it and it is amazing. but he's not here. or i'm not there. whichever way you want to look at it. we have been struggling because we were both unemployed for about a month before he got this job, and thankfully we were able to make ends meet. but i can't leave auburn until our house sells.
(this blog was briefly interrupted by the sound of a key in the door which caused me to throw aside my computer and attack my husband as he walked in the door - he's home for the weekend!)
but anywho...so we are trying to sell the house right now, which is looking better (after a couple of weeks of absolutely no one wanting to see it). and then i dropped my phone in the toilet, which i know isn't the end of the world, but as i mentioned in my previous post on the subject it is just a senseless waste of money). and then this morning, i am woken up by a call from david, and he doesn't even say hi, he just says "so there was a really bad storm last night and i woke up and a huge tree limb fell on the honda and cracked the windshield and knocked off the side view mirror." if you know david, you would probably have my same reaction...none, because you would expect him to say, "just kidding," and go on with what he was going to say. so i said, "you're kidding." and he said "no, i'm serious"...."you're kidding."...."no, i'm serious." so by this point i'm starting to get the picture that he is actually serious. so that's another thing that we are dealing with right now. and it's like at any point we could handle these situations fine, but because of the circumstances, i am starting to get a little worn down.
the past few weeks have been wrought with emotional breakdowns, mostly because i miss my husband. i can't even imagine how people deal with husbands who are overseas or traveling constantly. i'm usually one of those people who is like "give me my space!" but i think its because for the longest time we worked together and came home together and i needed my time. but i didn't know how much i needed him til he was gone.
but then i was going through some things i cleaned out of our car and i found this note my friend, courtney, had written for me a few years ago on the back of a bank envelope and is so perfect how the Lord gives encouragement when needed (why of all days, would i choose to go through the stack of trash out of the tahoe?):
"dear brothers and sisters, whenever trouble comes your way, let it be an opportunity for JOY. for when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. so let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be strong in character and ready for anything. if you need wisdom, if you want to know what God wants you to do - ASK HIM, He will gladly tell you. He will not resent your asking." james 1:2-5
so thank you, courtney, for your note that means so much years later. and thank you, Jesus for bringing this to me amidst my business.
side note: as i was writing this, i was watching glenn beck (what else) and his interview with bob barr...i think i am voting libertarian this year...)
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